After realising I was going to have jiggle my menus around somewhat to ensure I eat the things I've made, and keep within my £1 daily limit, breakfast today was one of my chilli bean burgers, an eighth of my home-baked soda bread, and a half banana. Strange combo, I know, but at least it's relatively healthy and if I was really living in extreme poverty, would I be grumbling? I think not.
Lunch was the remaining portion of sweet potato & lentil curry I made, with only a spoonful or so of rice, since I dipped into it yesterday to make the bean burgers. I had another eighth piece of bread to pad it out a little. And guess what dinner was? Oh yes, the dreaded pasta and sauce, with a sprinkle of chilli flakes as suggested by Kristen in her comment on my post about this meal. But I DID decide to put it on a square plate, and what a difference that made. Appearance is everything!
To be honest, the pasta and sauce wasn't all that bad. It's just the thought of it that is! I didn't mind eating it that much. The chilli flakes really did help.
I had a new tea discovery as well. It seems the last few days all I've done is prioritise how to make the most of my tea, doesn't it? Maybe so - it's integral to my life and way of being! So now I've discovered - make the cup of tea as normal (brewed in the mug, one teabag), then save the teabag, and the next time, use the same teabag but LEAVE the teabag in the mug. The first few sips are weak, but once it's stewed a while, it does get a bit better. Not perfect, but hey ho, I'm doing the best I can!
I feel like I'm on a diet, too. Not in the sense of being hungry 9in actualy fact, I've been cooking myself far more pasta for a meal than I notmally would!) or weight loss, but that element of deprivation, in seeing the foods I really want, but can't have. And also - the fact that my menu plans are so rigid and planned out. Since I spent so many years getting myself off the dieting treadmill (hence why this blog began), it's weird to be experiencing this feeling again. I am normally fairly free with what I eat - I eat for health and nutrition, yes, but I never deprive myself or eat in a very rigid way.
And I have no appetite for the food I have prepared. Funny how pyschology works, normally I love leftovers but I suppose these are not exactly leftovers, but planned out for eating within my five days. The curry is nice and tasty, but I didn't really want to eat that today. I certainly didn't want the pasta. And as for the lentil soup tomorrow? I actually feel a bit sick.
Of course - if this were the reality for me, living in extreme poverty, I think my mentaility would be different. I'm sure I'd be thankful for whatever I was getting to eat, rather than fed up of it. I'll hopefully never know if I'm right or not with that.
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So, this is how today has looked so far:Day 4
50ml soya milk 3p
2 x teabags 3p
Half banana 5p
Bread (1/4 portion) 8
1 x Carrot & bean burger 11p
Curry & rice 27p
Aubergine sauce 35p
Pasta 75g 3p
Chilli flakes sprinkle 1p
I will be able to squeeze in another teabag and a splash of soya milk for 3p later, as a treat :)